Fully God

It has been awhile since I blogged, but I did not have a dull moment while I was not blogging. My position to blog as God works in my heart still holds and he has been working mightily. We have been studying the Holy Spirit at church and it has been an eye opening experience for me, however one thing that has stuck with me through the entire study has been the description of who the Holy Spirit is by our Pastor. The words "fully God" reverberated deep within me and took hold. I have always loved the Holy Spirit and pursued a love relationship with him but I never saw him as fully God, I know he is part of the trinity and that he is powerful. Intellectually I know that all are equal within the trinity but I never comprehended that he is fully God.

One of my favorite verses in the bible is Romans 8:11 and I love the King James version of this "But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you." This verse has always filled me with confidence and awe for the awesome gift that is the Spirit, but it still never dawned on me that that he is fully God.

Fully God, what does it mean? Simply that I have God living within me! OK, take a moment and let that sink in. God did not just give us a spirit to help us, he gave us his very own spirit. You may be thinking well, obviously. It is not obvious to me, it is astounding that we know this truth and yet live as powerless as we do! We go to lengths seeking God, chasing after some experience, waiting to hear an audible voice to know he is near as well as waiting on signs and wonders. These are all good and God is mighty to do all these and more, and yet a great miracle is within us! How? I have no clue. Why? Is another mystery. All I know is I am loved greatly! My father in heaven loves me so much that after he sent his son to die in my place and took him back home, he saw it fit to leave HIMSELF with me. 

The possibilities of that realization sheds light on my feeble life. I live defeated when I am victorious, powerless, when I have all power through Christ, alone, when God himself lives within me. What more do I need to KNOW that he loves me? That every aspect of my life is important to him? That he knows everything about me since he lives in me? What more do I need?

My prayer is that God will continually reveal himself to me, always revealing my heart and emptying me of all selfishness and vain ambitions. My woes, my grief, my desires, he knows them ALL. That comforts me and I hope it does the same for you. May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God and the sweet fellowship of the Holy Spirit remain with you, now and forever.